how are you doing wih this?

Since the divorce https://flonlinedivorce.com/how-to-file-...le-county/ he has never asked for 50/50. He used to be a very dedicated father. So I'm trying to figure it all out. Why would you just leave? What is it like not seeing your kids every day? It kills me that I leave my children for 8 days, so I can't even imagine what it's like to see them only 8 days a month. Please help me understand?